Life ain’t so ZEN right now…

To post or not to post. That is the question…

Just when I think I have life “handled”, it goes and takes a sharp turn in the opposite direction and chaos ensues. And in these moments, I don’t feel like such a “Zen mommy”. My house is a mess, 3-year-old uses the 15 month old as his personally punching bag, not sure I’m the best wife in the world and the list goes on.

I have 2 sides to this coin.
1. I have my own personal “goal” of what zen could look like. What the house could look like. How the kids could be. How I could be in our marriage.

2. I am doing the best I can.

Zen isn’t a place to get to. It’s a place to BE. Moment to moment to moment. And in many moments this past month, I have had less ZEN moments that usual. AND, I have made that to mean that I am FAILING. But what is failure, really?

Failure is not matching up to the standard I wish. I guess my own advice for myself is to “suck it up princess”. Life isn’t ever going to be “handled”. So I may as well enjoy the ride I am on. With the kids I have. The house condition it is in. With the marriage I am creating. And the list that could go on.

Life is too short to be feeling like a failure. So, instead of sulking, I am blogging. I better choice, I would say.